I took a much needed day off yesterday as I was becoming more and more annoyed with people and things around me, and even with myself.
I had to stop and take a deep look into my psyche to figure out what was wrong with me, and actually it was self reflection that started my 'fucked up' feelings to start with, as I have been participating in gnostic lent meditations that allow you to see yourself more clearly, and then you try to right the 'wrong' things about yourself.
This is very hard work, I challenge anyone reading this to take a few weeks of self exploration of your psyche...it's exceptionally revealing...painfully so. It is like being born all over again, then going through painful teething and puberty all in a few weeks.
BUT,it is worth doing as you find yourself much closer to the 'one',the ineffable perfect father of all, Christ, and Sophia.
So, I took a day and just floated about. Spent time with my wife as we shopped at the bread store and some case lot sales at grocery stores.
I am now back to work more 'me' than ever...meaning happy and confident.
This feels good.
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