IF this is the day the LORD has made...I am disappointed with his powers.

I did not have a very good day today.


It started out at 600 am when the alarm woke me up and I stumbled downstairs to my bathroom to start getting ready for my work day. I was low on toothpaste, but I knew this for days...squeezed out enough to make it work though. Combed my hair, put on the anti-perspirant, and walked back upstairs to get my work clothes on.

I put my clothes on and fumbled around for my shoes, went into the kitchen to put the shoes on, and there it all was....the roast that I took out of the freezer to thaw..YESTERDAY morning, the recycle pile that HAD to get to the curb RIGHT NOW as well as the garbage that needed to be emptied. So I hurried and did all of this. The roast went back into the fridge. I HOPE I don't get sick after I slow cook it for 8 hours...it was still cold to the touch, so...here goes. I did all of this with barely enough time to make it to my bus.

The bus arrived very shortly after I got through walking/running to the stop. And after I sat down, the 2 bananas, 3 apples, 1 cobb salad, and the chef salad I made for lunch ( the cobb was dinner) started to alert me that all of the nourishment had been absorbed and needed to leave my body. So, I have this inner dialogue "OK OK...just FIVE MORE MINUTES until I get to work...hang ON!!

The bus ALMOST broke down, I mean it literally stalled. All kinds of alarms sounding, the driver sort of cursing...and I am about to "blow".

Long story short, I made it to work just in time. BUT in a rather bad mood. I made my way into the office area where I download my time from a PDA every morning, thinking "OK OK at least I will have a few moments alone, usually nobody is even here...I can calm down"

But not this morning. The whole fucking crew was right there, and in my way. I was in no mood at all to see them, least of all talk to them. I hate that shit when you really NEED down time, and just can't seem to GET it. And of course Tuesdays are our meeting day where I get to listen to the fuckers drone on about what they "did" the past week.

I got through the meeting and got calm, but then I ran my ass off most of the day trying to make repairs on AC equipment because this is what I do for a living, yeah, it's wonderful, enriching and FUN ;)


I came home for lunch and ate another salad. The Michael Jackson memorial service had just started. I felt a strong sadness and emptiness I have not felt for a number of years.

I'll miss Michael. But I am hypocrite, too.

I am so guilty of buying the gossip, spreading the rumors, making the jokes. Now I am talking about how I am going to miss Michael.

I am a hypocrite. I am also a fan. I bought so many of his records over the years, even when it was not the "cool" thing to do. I love his music. But, I am also a hypocrite.

When I heard his little girl call him "Daddy" it made me cry.

My kids call me "Daddy", too. What kind of hell would my kids have gone through if I was the butt end of all the jokes over the years? I can't believe we made him less than human at times. I can't believe how cruel I can be.

Michael taught me a lesson today. I need to realize that no matter who any person is, famous, homeless, neighbor, friend, that person deserves humanity from me. Kindness, respect, love.

I hope I never again aim sharp words and crticism at anybody.

UNLESS of course, they happen to be republican.